I JUST WANNA GO BACK TO THE TIME WHEN I ACTUALLY MEANT SOMETHING TO YOU.

I JUST WANT SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS ME )':

Merry X'Mas.

He hates looking at the camera ):

Hellohello! 23rd December was such an awesome but tiring day! Woke up at 10 plus and was late! Cuz meeting bi at 11. In the end met at ard 11.30! Only had 3 hours of sleep because i fell asleep at only 7 am for i.dont.know.wad.reason. Yeah.

Follow Bi to school to hand in his Sec 5 application form! Well, hope that he really gets in! Results will be know on 30th dec! Aish, so late! ): Anyway, there's so many new sec 1s in the school! Hahahaha! All crowd at e gate!

Went off to meet Geraldine, Marilyn an KaiBoon at MRT station! Hahaha! We were actually the earliest! But Marilyn was there before us. Hahahaha! We went to T1 arcade first before going to the MRT station! SO WE WERE FIRST ACTUALLY. Okay, lame.

Went to eat Long John Silver. I was damn hungry! Maybe thats e reason why i cant get to slepe at night! I didnt eat breakfast, but i didnt eat anything at LJS. That means i skip both breakfast and lunch. How awesomeeeeee. Ate a few Bi's fries and drank some of his water. Hehehe! Had been eating LJS for quite a number of time alr! Within this month!

Was discussing where to go but have no idea! Wanted ice skating and stuff, but its too ex! We wanted to go bowling, but its boring hahaha! So in the end, we didnt go. But we went to Clarke Quay instead. How far ! HAHAHA! Went to buy sticky! Weeeee!

Just too cute!

The MRT ride there was so oh.i.dont.know.how.to.say. Some middle age guy pretending to be old so that WE will let up our seats to them. But haha, NONO, we didnt! So, he went to tell people about us. Purposely only. Like wtf sia, not old act old. Senior citizen, act one only sia. So yeah, maybe that OLD MAN was cursing and swearing at us throughout e whole MRT ride he was taking. But he still got e seat in the end. Maybe some kind hearted soul ke lian him. Hahaha!

Went to buy sticky and they were doing some demonstration. So we queued up like some typical singaporeans to get a free some lollipop! Its like made on the spot lohh! So cool haha. And its hot and soft at first! But after awhile, became hard le.

Went down to their main shop. Bought for myself rainbow rock and i bought Bi i love you rock. Hehe, i so good right! Wanted to buy jar de for him. But didnt have le! So sad ): But its okay! Hahaha! The queue was long lohh!

Walked around the central, not knowing wad to do. In the end, we went out to the river side to take pictures. Hahaha. Took quite alot! Tried jumpshots. But idk the pictures are with who. Hahaha! But i think is Epic fail de la!

Trained back to Tampines to buy food for steamboat at night at Geraldine's house. The train was like, got alot ppl. And we all, Geraldine, Jg, Marilyn, Sh, kb and me are like typical singaporeans trying to block e way. We standing at the door then reach every station we purposely dont want to move away! HAHAHA! Scarly we on stomp sia. Best. LOL. Then we laugh like damn loud HAHAHA!

Went to Fairprice for e food! Bought damn alot cuz we scared not enough. In the end we bought like $61.20! Actually not really alot :-P Still haven return Geraldine the money! Went to collect the log cake too!

Bused back to geraldine's house. I think i fell asleep on her rocking chair LOL. Sh slept on e sofa too hahaha! Was just too tired that day hahaha. Steamboat halfway, was very full le. Trying to keep my stomach space for e cake. Hahaha. I think i knock-ed out somewhere in between. Im not very sure too. Hehehe.

Steamboat was so fun! Hahahaha! Cy and ben joined us afterwards. Crap alot and finally cut the cake. Took individual photos with the log cake! Decided to use that as our Christmas FB profile pic. Isnt that too cool? Hehehe!

We actually have ice cream too! But we were all too full for it hahaha!

Talked, then my daddy came to fetch me home! Reached home, too lazy to bathe ad went too sleep! Fell alseep like straight. Like.a.pig LOL.

Today, went to Ben's house for lunch. Wanted to meet bi at 12, but he couldnt wake up. So i called him for four times and he woke up. So we met at 12.30. Bused to inter to find dine, marilyn, kb. Walked to ben's house afterwards.

Yummy strawberry sago and strawberry milk ice!

Ate, then played WII. ITS.NO.FUN.AT.ALL.

So i practically rot for e few hours there while looking at e others playing happily.

Was feeling so tired and sleepy since there's nothing for me to do. So BORING.

I feel so FAIL. Dont even know how play WII. Bi sort of like scolded me cuz i didnt play well.. ): Feel like crying lohh! )': But i'm not angry at you..really not angry..

Daddy came to fetch me at 5 plus. Received Christmas presents from Dwayne, Val and ben's father. Feel so PS cuz we didnt give them anything!!

Went to Loyang point to eat dinner. Then went home. So here i am blogging! Gonna watch WGM later ! Weeee !

Okay! I shall end my post here! Byebye! And, Merry Christmas! :D

HIE! IM GONNA SUFFER FROM MISSING TOO MUCH THIS FEW DAYS. YES. Bi's leaving real soon! Like wake up then few hours then he'll be on plane le ~ Then he'll go off to Taiwan. Welcome to Taiwan ~ ! Haiz. Then i'll be alone in singapore, nobody will be with me. TUMBLR STYLE, FOREVER ALONE. AHHHHH. I wish 5 days go pass quickly yup?? Hope he will have fun there! Idk wad to do when he's not with me.. ): bored much. Gonna wake up early for him tmr! Honoured much?! HAHA! And congrats for passing yr n level ! (:

SHIT MAN I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT.

I cant wait to get my iphone !!!!!!!

Behind the wall.

I may be smiling. But that doesnt means that i'm happy.

Always on my mind.

Haiz idk wads wrong with me nowadays.. I may be paranoid, or in fact i am. Or well maybe, thats e fact. I lose my appetite. I dont talk to my parents as much. Im not as happy as i were. I completely dont feel like studying anymore ~ I dont sleep well at night, i cry myself to sleep at night. I wonder how i can survive till tdy, and not remembering the bad things that happen to us. Sometimes i just wonder, wad am i to you actually? Friend? I think i weigh lesser then friends. You treat yr friends better. Hey, seriously wads on yr mind? I dont mind you know. Really. I know i have my friends too i want to spent time with them too. But i didnt totally forget you right. I still sms you like how i always does. I dont spent 1 hr just to reply a single sms. I dont play my computer till i forget to reply you. But how u treat me? Do i deserve that? I really dont know. Really, for wad wrong that i have done, pls come and tell me. I really do not know how long i can hold on alr. I spent my days thinking. Always. Guys, ya you do have yr own world. And wads in a guy's mind, yes i know. Its different from a girl's. But just dont go overboard. Im not some pushover really. All i really need is care and concern. I dont really need a bf who is perfect. Who will be by my side 24 hrs. A call and he'll reach. But yes, show me some love. Have i not love you enough? I doubt i show u little love yeah? I've said before. If u still love me, hold me tight. If you dont, pls gently let me go. But if you still do, i hope you will really show me some love. Really. Lastly, i love you.

Sorry for all these. But im really just speaking from my mind. Pls dont get angry. Sorry.

Perfect Boyfriend.

PERFECT BOYFRIEND

Text her saying good morning.

Tells her she's beautiful.

When she uses one word sentence ask her wads wrong and dont give up.

Tells her he love her everyday.

Tells her goodnight every night.

Can you?

Wad am i to you, actually?

I feel as though im nothing to you.

Im just a friend. Or worst then that. Yeah?

Empty promises. Promise then breaking it? Wad does that means?

Stay my baby.

Now I know that I can't make you stay, but where's your heart?

Sorry.

Maybe you're not the one for me, maybe we're not meant to be.

Some things are better to be left unheard.

你真的要各走各的吗?

Sorry, but wad u said at the foodcourt..i heard. And i remembered.

Missing you baby.

I want a kiss on my forehead! ):

MI XIU MI XIU! ):

It hurts.

Wad hurts me e most : Knowing that im less important then a computer game.

错的人

明知道爱情并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
但是我还是相信只是煎熬
朋友都劝我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑
但是做人已经那么累
假惺惺的想要逃
在爱里连真心都不能给
这才真正的可笑
爱得太真 太容易 让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易 不顾一切 满是伤痕
我太笨 明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身
明知道爱情并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
但是我还是相信只是煎熬
朋友都劝我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑
但是做人已经那么累
假惺惺的想要逃
在爱里连真心都不能给
这才真的真正可笑
爱得太真 太容易 让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易 不顾一切 满是伤痕
我太笨 明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身
可能 在爱里面这样算笨
可能 永远没有所谓永恒
但是我 不愿放弃这里面一点点可能
宁愿笨也不想要悔恨
爱得太真 太容易 让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易 不顾一切 满是伤痕
我太笨 明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身
我太笨 明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但我相信有点可能

Tumblr ~

Will be at blogger and tumblr :D Tumblr is for pictures! HAHA :]

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Sorry that i love you.

For all the time that i tried for your smile

For making you think
that i was worth the while
So your love love love
love love would be mine
For sending you flowers
and holding your hand
That no one was there
to take a stand
But then love love love
made us blind
And Im so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in
love with you
Im sorry that it came true
But sorry doesnt turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And Im So sorry for...
Making you love me and
saying goodbye
For being the one that
taught you how to cry
It was love love love
and it passed us by
For giving you every
thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when
i fled the scene
sorry love,for wasting your time
And Im so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in
love with you
Im sorry that it came true
But sorry doesnt turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
Im so sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And apology now after
all of this time
Wont make any difference tonight
But Im hoping Im Sorry
will open your mind
To love love love love in your life
Sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in
love with you
Im sorry that it came true
But sorry doesnt turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in
love with you
Im sorry that it came true
But sorry doesnt turn back time
Im sorry that i loved you
Im sorry that i hurt you
Im so sorry that i loved you
Im so sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i loved you

Hey you.

Harrow! Was so bored this week ): CO for consecutive 3 days~ Geraldine's in camp and nobody is there! Bi is sometimes not there haiz so boring la. CO tmr again..Sectional..dont feel like going leh ): But if i dont go, will miss out alot of things~ But if go, Bi's not there! D: Haizzz....Nvm, needa get used to Bi not around de life~ Yeah. Okay, am gonna do my homework at night..promise...might do either maths or physics. Both is sian ttm de! ): Alrights, byebye!

AND IM SO GONNA SLIM DOWN >:[ IM GOING ON A DIET! WONT SKIP MEALS BUT GONNA EAT LIKE DAMN LITTLE ONLY~ HOLY, I HOPE I CAN DO IT THIS TIME ROUND. LOL. HELP ME AHHHH~ BI, STOP BRINGING ME TO EAT KFC!!! HEHEHE. GREEN TEA, 0% FATS. I STILL RMB! MILO, 1/2. SOMETHING FATS. CANNOT DRINK. ISOTONIC DRINKS CONTAIN NO FATS TOO HAHAHAHA! OKAY WISH ME LUCK BUHBYE. I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT! GRR.

Nothing better then you.

Hie! Nth much happen, went to SCH to watch ding's concert on e 16 and watched Megamind too! :D I wanna go out ~~~ But everybody's so busy ): Homework too!! Ahhh sec4 ): Gonna work hard and lesser facebook Woohooooo~ Cant wait for my contacts to come! Grey! YAY hahaha. :] CO later, sian! ): I think bi went back to sleep teeheeee!